There’s no doubt about it: Yoga is stressful. Well, at least to me it is.
Yep, I said it. I’m disagreeing with the whole globe.
Why does yoga stress me out when apparently, it’s the greatest thing ever? Surely you’ve read the studies about how much good it provides. I even posted one myself.
For years, I’ve tried to understand my reaction to practicing it. Some days, I do feel that a groove develops. If my practice captures the essence of breath and flow, I’m okay to go. I appreciate the organicness.
But a lot of times, I feel like I’m forcing the flow which seems odd given my personality. I’ve trained in disciplines like dance and other movement specialities so yoga seems like it would be a natural fit.
Instead, the practice creates a lot of stress for me. Or rather, I create a lot of stress because I feel overwhelmed to like it.
My Body on Yoga
I find it hard to breathe in certain poses or even get into certain poses. This, despite a lifetime of working out hard and as I mentioned, partaking in other movement classes. I always feel a bit off in the process.
This causes me to hold my breath, especially in inverted poses.
Also, I have a hard time straightening my arms behind me when I lean forward. Suffice to say, this pose causes me nightmares! It also causes me embarrassement. I do all sorts of shoulder opening stretches yet this move continues to elude me. It makes me oh so mad because I can run hills and do a lot of other exercises. Even my mother can do this move, and her idea of working out is walking around the kitchen.
To say it’s frustrating qualifies as an understatement.
Still, I preservere.
Marching On with Semi-Okay Alignment
Despite all the complaining, I refuse to give up. Something in me says that I command the ability to forge ahead and become half-way decent at yoga. I know I need to do it because I do a lot of jumping, weight training, and balance work. Yoga helps maintain flexibility, and is just the thing to keep me on track with my other athletic endeavors.
And since I participate in artistic forms of movement as well as athletic ones, yoga should be able to help me center my body, mind, and soul when it comes to practicing those.
I must admit that I find myself enjoying some practices, such as this one.
Perhaps I need to finally accept that breathing with my movement and the quieting of my mind constitutes the main purpose of yoga, and my flow is as good as it can be right now. My flow doesn’t need to look like the yoga teacher’s flow, though that’s something to strive for. There’s no need to panic about my arms. As long as I’m breathing and aiming for the correct form, that’s enough for now.
What do you think? Do you find yourself frustrated with yoga or do you find that it helps you manage your Fibromyalgia flares and pain, control stress, and stay fit?
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